Smith William arrived on January 18, 2010 and was my best surprise!
After all of that money…all of that trying…all of the doctor appointments…all of the prayers…God gave me two freebies. Kensington and Smith came on the Lord’s terms…on the Lord’s time…and it was exactly what I needed. I just didn’t know it before.
I am a big believer in fertility doctors…please don’t get me wrong. I was blessed with wonderful doctors that loved me and cared for me and did everything they could to try and help me get pregnant. But the bottom line is…they could use all of the medicine in the world and create the absolute most perfect conditions for conception but unless God wants to bring a human being into this world, nothing they do can create a baby.
Even though I’m five years past infertility, I still have a huge heart for moms that can’t conceive. I don’t care whether you’re trying to have your first or your fifth…whether you’ve been trying two months or 10 years, I have an aching heart for you. I pray for each and every woman that emails me about their struggles. From the bottom of my heart, I am so sorry for your pain. I wish I could tell you that one day, you’ll conceive a child but I just can’t. What I can tell you is that God is in control…the Lord loves you so much…and he has never left the plan for your life. Trust in the Lord and he will bless you more than you could ever know.
My two favorite scriptures are Jeremiah 29: 11, “For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.”. And I also love the Message’s version of Ephesians 3:20. “God can do anything, you know-far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams.”
The first two are of course, Kensington and Smith. Without my struggles, they wouldn’t have arrived.
My third blessing was my dear friend Erika. She and I bonded over the fact that we were both having fertility issues. Our mutual friend Whitney told us that we should be friends because we were both trying to get pregnant and having issues…well, we bonded over our sorrows and then the Lord blessed us times four! Within 18 months, we had 4 kids! Without my fertility struggles, I wouldn’t be as close to Erika as I am today…and my kids wouldn’t be the same ages as her sweet kids. I am so thankful that infertility brought me Erika.
Four special kiddos
And finally, if it weren’t for my struggles, I wouldn’t be able to relate to so many of you. I count you in my blessings and am praying for you. Thank you for sharing with me and trusting me with your struggles. I love you all!