Tomorrow, our Madeley James turns five years old.
Our sweet, spunky, full of life, always happy, has never thrown a fit one time in her life, just JOYFUL fourth child will officially be a “big girl”.
I remember where I was the morning I read my Bible and was drinking my coffee and really felt in my heart God say “go back”. We had only been home with Ashby weeks and were totally and completely smitten with her, so it shocked me to hear Him tell me to go back. It wasn’t audible, but it was right in my heart. At the time, I knew I should listen, but I just had no idea how He could add to a family that was in my opinion, so complete.
And then He gave us Madeley.
And she been everything we all never knew we absolutely needed.
Madeley is such joy. She is such happiness. She is the most precious thing, and we are so happy to celebrate her birthday all weekend long.
I think about Madeley’s birth mama every day, but this week, I’ve thought about her even more. Madeley was found on December 19, and based on her development, they think she was about two months old (which is why they gave her the birthday of October 19). I think about how that mama must have loved her so much. How she held her and fed her and I cannot imagine the circumstances that lead to her having to give her up two months later. I’m teary right now typing this. Can you imagine? Can you imagine loving your two month old baby, having that connection and bond with her, and then for whatever reason, having to place her in a basket and leave her alone to be found by someone else? And never knowing what would happen to her. Ugh. I’m crying. It just kills me. My prayer every single day is that God would give both of our birth moms peace, some overwhelming peace that their girls are okay. I want them to know that they’re loved and cared for and happy.
Madeley James Shull, we love you so much. You are the exclamation point to our family. The icing on our cake. The joy in our lives. I am so thankful that I get to be your mama. Happy fifth birthday! xo